Resolutions for 2009

It's quite amazing: As I was pondering through what resolutions I should make for the year 2009, a voice come: "Why do you need to make resolutions? Just let go and let me do the rest." Haha, woo-hoo! I need not make any resolutions cause the Lord will lead the way and make my path straight, He will lead me to walk the way He wants me to. How delightful! (^_^)

Hmm... On other thoughts, it could be quite scary. We would never forsee what God has in mind for us. It could be quite challenging and the road may be rough. Even Jesus said He did not come to bring peace to the earth but a sword (Matthew 10:34). He will discipline us and mould us into the best He has for us.

The road may be rough but He will be with us!
The road may be rough but He will strengthen us!
The road may be rough but He will keep His promises for us!
The road may be rough but we will emerge victorious and free!
For the Lord
Is with us!

My Birthday 2008

I am officially quarter-of-a-century-old!!!! Gosh! I could actually use the word "century" on describing my age. (~+~)

今时不同往日，想当年才十八、九岁，现在我已经过了四分之一个世纪了。相比之下，无论在皮肤、体力、身体状况、健康，都明显退步了，不认老都不行。

The issue of aging aside, I had a wonderful birthday this year. Thank you alll for wishing me "Happy Birthday" and for my dear sisters who prayed for Father to grant me the desires of my heart. Give thanks!! Because all the three material desires of my heart that I wished for before my birthday were all granted by Father, I'm undeniably loved and blessed by Abba Father. (^_^)

Here pops the question: So wat did I wish for? I wished that:
1) My family and friends, people I love can stay healthy, free of medical issues.
2) I can enjoy a KTV treat. (It's been a long time since I've K-ed... Money and time constrain.)
3) SHE new album.
4) Some cash whatever the sum might be.
5) Wisdom in managing my dad's bus company.

I've got 2,3,4 from my dear sisters and friend and surely I know, Father will grant the other two wishes. (^_^)

Some birthday pics to share:

好久不见

朋友们，好久不见！距离我上一次的日志已有三个月多之久。有想我吗？(^_<)

不好意思，让你们屡次上加菲猫的部落格都带着失望离开。就让我慎重地对那些关心我境况的朋友们说声抱歉(~_<)7 也感谢你们发简讯问候，简单的一条简讯已经传达了你们对我的关心、成了我在雨中的热炭。感谢…… (^!^)

5月27日，我父亲再次入院，仅仅过了短短的七个月时间。他中风了，右边的手脚瘫痪，语言和理解能力也受到影响。在医院呆了一个月，6月25日出院。到现在，他恢复得还不错，只是一直不愿意运用他的右手，右手的肌肉明显的萎缩了。该说的已经说了，能为他做的也有个限度，最关键的是他自己。

因为中风使他的理解能力受到影响，他巴士公司内大部分的工作得由我着手。现在我每天仿佛打两份工，白天拍戏/回公司/看剧本，晚上做他公司的帐/开单子/安排司机的工作等，每天都排得满满的。短短的七个月内，他的信用卡单的债务又回弹到和之前一样了，上一次我用了我所有的积蓄帮他还的卡单已付诸大海。前阵子，就是忙着这一切的一切，和适应目前的情况，节省自己的开销，带父亲复诊等等等等，睡觉上厕所的时间都没有了。

现在生活算是安稳了，两份工照样两份工，卡单照样得还，医疗/日常开销照样得还，但感谢主，我已经调整过来了。家里的经济状况是棘手，不过恩典是够我用的。不要在乎有多糟糕，而要学习书算那些小小的祝福。

我正在拍《心花朵朵开II》。七集的戏，对我来说是个大跃进。要注入的精神和要考虑到的问题更多、更复杂。到现在为止，我的外景已经结束了，正为即将开始的厂景拍摄做准备。有朋友说，拍七集可好了，她不会只看到我的名字一两天就消失了。哈哈！谢谢支持。

《心花朵朵开II》将于12月2日启播……

《心花II》幕后英雄

某天仰望天空时看到的 心型の云。。。

活着的每一天都是恩典

512四川大地震
震毁了家园
也震动了全球……
无辜的生命 眨眼间摧毁
美丽的家园 转眼间塌陷
至亲的家眷 一瞬间猝失
剩下的
什么 什么

请为四川的各个灾区祷告、为失去亲人的民众祷告、为存活下来的民众祷告、为他们的生理和心理建设祷告、为他们（特别是孤儿）未来的日子祷告、为当地政府能够好好利用各方的善款重建灾区和救济灾民祷告……

2008年似乎多灾多难：MC突然间离世、陈冠希事件、肥肥姐（沈殿霞）逝世、Mas Selamat逃狱到如今还下落不明及最近的缅甸风灾和四川大地震。希望这些不好的消息能真的画上句点，而不是省略号。希望下半年能带来好消息！

詩篇 39:4
耶和华啊，求你叫我晓得我身之终！我的寿数几何？ 叫我知道我的生命不长！

人算得了什么？一场天灾、一场横祸都能够霎时夺取我们所谓的生命。那，人还追求什么名利、什么物质上的需求享受、什么快乐呢？

只有那永恒的才是最最珍贵的！永恒的爱！永恒的恩典！

能活着的每一天，都是恩典！好好珍惜你身边爱你的人和你爱的人，他们的存在并不是必然的。

Thank you my friends! For leaving lovely messages for me in "Garfield's Choir", showing me how you are concerned about my on-goings and telling me you missed me. Haha! (^_^) Much much appreciated.

I'm good, not very busy but pretty occupied. Sometimes I feel like blogging but have no time, sometimes I have a little time but not enough for me to blog all I want, sometimes I have all the time but dun feel like blogging and I don't wanna blog for the sake of blogging. So that's why my blog seemed to get 'mouldy', regrets. I have been up to scroll through "Garfield's Choir" and feed Hamham at times though. (^,<)

I am currently doing editing for 心花朵朵开(Love Blossoms) which will premiere on 28th May, coming Wed. My episodes are Ep 44-46. So well, it's still a long way to go. My next project is, still, 心花朵朵开! Yes, yes, there's a part two and I am, still, in it. Hahaha! I will be starting my script disscussion soon and production will start in early July for me. Oh yes, I will be doing 7 episodes for my new project. A great jump from just 3 episodes to 7 episodes! So it means it will be much more taxing for me as a junior producer, do pray for me (>_<)"

That's all for now folks! A few behind-the-scenes pics for you to savour...

Fyn's & Din's Bdae Celebration Pics

火锅庆生会@鲜得来，Bugis

KTV @ PartiWorld, Shenton

学习 去 爱

爱 是一门学问

到底有谁真正懂得 去 爱

而能持之以恒呢



爱 是放下自我

不以自己为中心

不以自己的心志和利益为出发点



不容易



譬如对方弄丢了你喜欢的东西

你能不气

不被自己的情绪左右

转而为对方着想

想他发现东西丢了时的慌张和焦急不安

不简单



学习



毕竟人与人之间的微妙关系

远比一件东西来得重要吧

不一定找得回

不一定买得回

但那绝对不能替代关系

不能替代独一无二的你

不能替代得来不易的缘分

我要珍惜

学习 去 爱





如果耶稣以自我为中心

我们就不会有今天

但他没有

他因为爱

爱着罪人而被钉十架





爱 是一门学问

我会认真学习

认真去爱

爱着

Celina's birthday Celebration

Celina's my spiritual auntie!!! (^_^) Photogenic and angelic.... Here are two videos which records some of the happenings during her birthday celebration. We sung her birthday songs in different languages leh, so multi-lingual! Hahaha!

n bu!ss!w

平凡 变得不平凡

绚丽

简单的生活 有你 就美

色彩 扩大了范围

艳丽

黑白的画映 因你 改写

嘴角 长时间上扬

甜蜜

想着你

想着一起

。。。 。。。

同一时间

我到了云霄

也沉到深渊

无所谓

认了吧

愿意

为你

让我修补你的翅膀

不

让我

成为你的翅膀

翱翔在无边际的蓝天白云上

沉溺在紫红色的浪漫晚霞中

你

你 让我有了呼吸
每天醒来夜里睡时
昼夜都想你

你 成了我生命姿彩
让我看到我从未见过的
美丽风景

（是）你让我着迷
望着你
我感觉不到我自己
整个世界
我的视线
都只有你

想要躲你
越逃开却揪得越紧

我的心为了你痛得我好痛
你带我到乐园却让我迷失

有一段时间没写歌了，今晚忽然心血来潮……其实，“你”这首歌早早就有了开头verse 1，但也只停留在开头很久。哈哈 ^、^ 老实说，这首歌还不算完整，总觉得还差了些什么，但就是想把它写出来。算是我的任性吧？在成熟的人，也有权利偶尔任性一下吧？

*若不怕耳朵受罪可点击“你”一标题，听我粗糙的唱一唱着首歌

Cell group CNY celebration

"Tummy The Army" marched into Paradise On Earth for a sumptous meal
“你在拍我吗？爱拍哪里就拍哪里...”

My spiritual mummie (^_^)

Then we proceeded to KTV and had a KTV out of the usual.... Becos... A blackout happened and all was pitch black. This was what happened during the blackout (shot by my camera with flash):
Hmm... Mummie wants to drink milk... Had her fill I guess =p
Btw, the sister on her right was shouting “不要摸我”all the way during the black out... Apparently, nobody touched her and she was just 暗爽-ing. Kekeke (>o<) I've got a bunch of weird but fun-loving and adorable sisters. Haha.

Two loving sisters... Aw.... (~^_^~)

好久不见！(^,^)/

Hahaha!! Yes yes, I've MIA-ed for quite a while, almost one month I suppose but dear Renie, my blog hasn't mould, at least it was still visited... Whahaha! =p

Well well, let me wish all friends a happy and blessed Chinese New Year! Happy birthday （人日）! And of course, a happy Valentine's Day! Yes yes, I know, they are all belated but still, these well wishes are from the bottom of my heart. (^_^)

Here's wat I have been busy with that had kept me away from updating my blog:
On 20th January, I realised there were "pimples" on my chin, 3 lined up diagonally in a column. I din't take it to heart cos I tot maybe I was just heaty. The "pimples" subsided the next day but new ones surfaced on my palm and some portion of my arms. Itchy? Yes, but still I din't think it was serious as I tot they would subside so shouldn't be a problem. IT WAS A PROBLEM... This persisted for several days, every day I wake up finding new bites on my body and obviously they were not pimples. Some were very itchy and swelled up.




I finally told my mother about it and we concluded that it might well be bed bugs. My father's room was infested before and now's my turn. So we decided to tear down the built-in furniture in my room to resolve the bed bugs problem and I suggested tearing down the ones in my brother's room as well since it was a matter of time his room may get the infestation. It had been almost 14 years... Of course, I paid for the tearing down, the paintworks and the furniture for both my brother's and my room. ~,~'" Then I understand why God wanted me to pay back my father's bills "little by little, step by step"... He knew this was going to happen, and if I had paid for my father's bills all at one go, I may have to sleep with the bed bugs longer and feed them till they are all fat and ugly. Praise the Lord! (Anyway, I paid off another card of my dad's and applied for funds transfer for him. The other bills have lessen through the monthly payments I made and my dad is able to manage them himself through funds transfer and paying them religiously monthly. I just hope and pray that he would do as he said he would.)

This is the challenging part: It was near CNY when this happened and I practically had to race against time to do all the refurbishing of my room. I wanted to get my room done by CNY if not it would be tedious when my relatives come visit during the festive season. Miraculously, I trust it was God's favour, the 装修/油漆师傅 whom we approach are right on the job! Today, we called, tommorow they came and completed the work in one day respectively.

Then my family went to IKEA to shop for furniture. We met with another problem. Even if we buy the furniture before CNY, delivery could only be done on the 11th Feb. We couldn't wait that long of course, my living room's packed with all the stuff in my brother's and my room. Luckily, my father runs a bus company. He called his driver to come with his 44-seater bus and helped us moved the furniture to my house. Lalala~ Praise the Lord!

Oh yes, I missed out a point. Before shopping for the furniture, I actually prayed that there would be items on promotion so that I can get furniture at discounted price. Then there is this TV bench that I wanted which is priced at $249 but the colour that I wanted was out of stock. I actually planned to settle for my second option for a TV bench. Then it occured to me that there are two on display! Maybe I could ask them to sell me one as an "As-Is" item? And I did, I got the TV bench that I wanted at $160. Praise God again! (^_^) There were some defects of course, just scratches acutally, but I got them all covered up. Hehehe! I'm blessed and happy.

Here's my room: Before and After.












Neat right?? Nice right??? Hehehe! =p
流过汗水得来的果食分外甜美 \(^o^)/




Note the Garfield stickers at the different corners of my room. There's a meaning for them to be where they are orh! You can decipher for yourself what they represent. (^_^) Those above are just a few to show you, there are more in my room. Hehehe!

As you know, IKEA furniture have to be assembled. Before I bought the furniture, I actually had lunch with two sisters and we were sharing how God is "dismantling our lives",I used the exact word, "dismantling". Do you know how tedious it is to dismantle and reassemble? I experienced it while assembling my furniture. Used a wrong screw for a certain hole, had to unscrew it and redo it. Just a small screw and foil the whole furniture. It's just like how some small part of our life went wrong and God is willing to go through the trouble to dismantle that and reassemble it again. It's REALLY VERY tedious. And God wants me to experience the very experience he wants me to go through, to learn, to understand. 这也应证了我所坚信的：未曾经历过，你可能“懂”但绝对无法“了解”。

What a long post... Naturally after not blogging for so long I suppose... So that's what I've been busy with admist of work. =。=" Btw, caught the movies I wanted to watch but had no time out of my busy schedule at a go during the free times in the weekdays this week. Lalala~^u^~ Watched "Atonement" today. Had been wanting to watch it ever since I read its review even before it start its run till now when it is ending its run. Hahaha! Glad I watched it. Happy.

If you are a thinker even when watching a movie, then you may enjoy Atonement.

Directed by Jim Wright, the director for Pride and Prejudice. Kiera Knightly blossoms under him. (^_^)

情感的内敛

眼神的交流

诚实的面对自己

认清楚真挚的 爱

Fulfilling weekend \(^_^)/

This weekend has been quite fulfilling for me (^_^)

Friday, I took a day's leave to bring my father to SGH for review. Remember I mentioned previously that the doctor said my father may have to do a second surgery to implant a pacemaker if his heart doesn't strengthen? Friday was the review to decide whether or not he had to undergo that surgery.

Praise the Lord!!! The doctor reviewed that my father's heart is recovering well! Though he has to continue on medication, a second surgery was not needed! Hallelujah! Then we went to have a meal outdoors. My father hasn't been eating outside food for quite a long time and my mother decided to "reward" him. Hehehe. Afterwhich, I sudden upon a suggestion of visiting T3 at Changi Airport since it's newly opened. Hohoho. Family outing. (A pity my brother's in NS, can't join.)

Saturday morning, I went for a shoot, acting part-time for my new project for another producer just for fun. Miss Photogenic in Star Search 2007 will make her debut in this drama. In a scene this morning, she had to be splashed by May Phua, Best Supporting actress for Star Awards 2007. Kawaiiso... (FYI, this doesn't mean cute which is Kawaii. What does it mean? ... Lalala... =p) Think shooting this drama will be quite an enjoyment since most of the artistes involved are veteran... You know, when drama is "naturalistically" drama.

Early evening, I had to go check the studio shooting for my current project. It's finally coming to an end soon, I'm left with a half day shoot outdoors and a half night shoot in studio on the 22nd and 24th respectively. Pray that everything will be smooth.

Thank God that though I'm overlapping two projects, the Executive Producer in my new project is merciful enough to wait for me to finish editing my current on before I do any filming for my new project. *phew* (~_^)

Sunday! That's tomorrow! (^_^) Heee, Sabbath day. It will definitely be fulfilling! I just pray that my parents will go to church tomorrow and pray that someday, even without me asking or driving them, they will go to church.

After service and cell group, I have to rush back to help my brother give away his chinchillas that are at my auntie's place at the moment. 7 of them! To Woodlands and Tampines! For Christ's sake! What was my brother thinking when he made the request for me to give his chinchillas away using the car???!!! (*_*) MEOW! O God, may the erksome smell of the chinchillas turn to aroma and may I just fix my eyes and heart on Jesus while doing this. Thank God, that my brother isn't dragging this on anymore.

Still lots to settle but one by one, step by step, grace upon grace...

Off to bed. Oyasuminasai.