GARFIELD's PAW PRINTS

自己洗车 (^o^)

2009-02-04T21:32:00.003+08:00

我今天洗车了哦！挺累的，一个人洗了车的里里外外，还吸了尘。不过觉得挺好的，让别人洗肯定没有自己洗来得细心、干净，而且还省很多呢！同时也能把洗车当成运动，嘻嘻！

希望接下来也能有时间可以自己洗车，出出汗(^_^)

More than blessings!

2009-02-01T20:45:00.001+08:00

Happy Lunar New Year! The year of the Ox seems tough but give thanks! For we have the King of kings and the Lord of lords with us! Give thanks! Yes, that's THE thing we must do each and every second. For God is forever with us and His love for us is everlasting! You know, fortunately I have God in my life, the real and living God. He led me through every situation, no matter big or small. Without Him, it would be more difficult. He is Hope! He is Love! 基督徒是幸运的，是有福的，因为我们有天父！(^_^)

I've recieved two very special 'ang-baos' during this new year which are from two of my dear sisters. What these two red packets contained were more than money, they're... blessings! Blessings from the Lord to me, given through my sisters. \(^;^)/ One of the red packets came to me before new year while the other, today. Both of the red packets contained the same bible story which I believe is familiar to us all, the story of how Jesus fed the five thousand with merely five loaves of bread and two fishes.

Immediately I knew, it canot be mere coincidence. There are 260 chapters just in the New Testament itself, how can two different people offer me the same story from the bible in the same season? It must be from God! I asked God what he wanted to tell me besides what came to me as God's provision and do not worry. I flipped through the gospel books, reading that same story.

The disciples wanted Jesus to send away the crowd so that the crowd could go somewhere else to get food to eat but Jesus wanted the disciples to give them something to eat instead. However, the disciples saw that t was impossible, they had only five loaves of bread and two fish with them but feeding the five thousand would require eight months of wages. What the human eyes see and what human could do was limited. Jesus then gave instructions for the disciples to get the crowd to sit down whilst He gave thanks and broke bread. The obedience and faith the disciples have for Jesus let the five thousand ate and all were satisfied. The leftovers, twelve basketfull. Not only there are sufficient, there is abundance! God's grace is not only sufficient for us, it will be in abundance!

I learnt that I should not just see what my eyes could see nor what my ways could reach. When situations are beyond me, God will work. No matter how much limitations I can see, God will give me the abundance. I just need faith and obedience. Indeed, I need not worry cause God is my Provider and my Protector! Hallelujah!

Resolutions for 2009

2008-12-30T16:38:00.000+08:00

It's quite amazing: As I was pondering through what resolutions I should make for the year 2009, a voice come: "Why do you need to make resolutions? Just let go and let me do the rest." Haha, woo-hoo! I need not make any resolutions cause the Lord will lead the way and make my path straight, He will lead me to walk the way He wants me to. How delightful! (^_^)

Hmm... On other thoughts, it could be quite scary. We would never forsee what God has in mind for us. It could be quite challenging and the road may be rough. Even Jesus said He did not come to bring peace to the earth but a sword (Matthew 10:34). He will discipline us and mould us into the best He has for us.

The road may be rough but He will be with us!
The road may be rough but He will strengthen us!
The road may be rough but He will keep His promises for us!
The road may be rough but we will emerge victorious and free!
For the Lord
Is with us!

My Birthday 2008

2008-10-08T18:22:00.000+08:00

I am officially quarter-of-a-century-old!!!! Gosh! I could actually use the word "century" on describing my age. (~+~)

今时不同往日，想当年才十八、九岁，现在我已经过了四分之一个世纪了。相比之下，无论在皮肤、体力、身体状况、健康，都明显退步了，不认老都不行。

The issue of aging aside, I had a wonderful birthday this year. Thank you alll for wishing me "Happy Birthday" and for my dear sisters who prayed for Father to grant me the desires of my heart. Give thanks!! Because all the three material desires of my heart that I wished for before my birthday were all granted by Father, I'm undeniably loved and blessed by Abba Father. (^_^)

Here pops the question: So wat did I wish for? I wished that:
1) My family and friends, people I love can stay healthy, free of medical issues.
2) I can enjoy a KTV treat. (It's been a long time since I've K-ed... Money and time constrain.)
3) SHE new album.
4) Some cash whatever the sum might be.
5) Wisdom in managing my dad's bus company.

I've got 2,3,4 from my dear sisters and friend and surely I know, Father will grant the other two wishes. (^_^)

Some birthday pics to share:

好久不见

2008-09-04T15:34:00.004+08:00

朋友们，好久不见！距离我上一次的日志已有三个月多之久。有想我吗？(^_<)

不好意思，让你们屡次上加菲猫的部落格都带着失望离开。就让我慎重地对那些关心我境况的朋友们说声抱歉(~_<)7 也感谢你们发简讯问候，简单的一条简讯已经传达了你们对我的关心、成了我在雨中的热炭。感谢…… (^!^)

5月27日，我父亲再次入院，仅仅过了短短的七个月时间。他中风了，右边的手脚瘫痪，语言和理解能力也受到影响。在医院呆了一个月，6月25日出院。到现在，他恢复得还不错，只是一直不愿意运用他的右手，右手的肌肉明显的萎缩了。该说的已经说了，能为他做的也有个限度，最关键的是他自己。

因为中风使他的理解能力受到影响，他巴士公司内大部分的工作得由我着手。现在我每天仿佛打两份工，白天拍戏/回公司/看剧本，晚上做他公司的帐/开单子/安排司机的工作等，每天都排得满满的。短短的七个月内，他的信用卡单的债务又回弹到和之前一样了，上一次我用了我所有的积蓄帮他还的卡单已付诸大海。前阵子，就是忙着这一切的一切，和适应目前的情况，节省自己的开销，带父亲复诊等等等等，睡觉上厕所的时间都没有了。

现在生活算是安稳了，两份工照样两份工，卡单照样得还，医疗/日常开销照样得还，但感谢主，我已经调整过来了。家里的经济状况是棘手，不过恩典是够我用的。不要在乎有多糟糕，而要学习书算那些小小的祝福。

我正在拍《心花朵朵开II》。七集的戏，对我来说是个大跃进。要注入的精神和要考虑到的问题更多、更复杂。到现在为止，我的外景已经结束了，正为即将开始的厂景拍摄做准备。有朋友说，拍七集可好了，她不会只看到我的名字一两天就消失了。哈哈！谢谢支持。

《心花朵朵开II》将于12月2日启播……

《心花II》幕后英雄

某天仰望天空时看到的 心型の云。。。

活着的每一天都是恩典

2008-05-26T00:48:00.005+08:00

512四川大地震
震毁了家园
也震动了全球……
无辜的生命眨眼间摧毁
美丽的家园转眼间塌陷
至亲的家眷一瞬间猝失
剩下的
什么什么

请为四川的各个灾区祷告、为失去亲人的民众祷告、为存活下来的民众祷告、为他们的生理和心理建设祷告、为他们（特别是孤儿）未来的日子祷告、为当地政府能够好好利用各方的善款重建灾区和救济灾民祷告……

2008年似乎多灾多难：MC突然间离世、陈冠希事件、肥肥姐（沈殿霞）逝世、Mas Selamat逃狱到如今还下落不明及最近的缅甸风灾和四川大地震。希望这些不好的消息能真的画上句点，而不是省略号。希望下半年能带来好消息！

詩篇 39:4
耶和华啊，求你叫我晓得我身之终！我的寿数几何？叫我知道我的生命不长！

人算得了什么？一场天灾、一场横祸都能够霎时夺取我们所谓的生命。那，人还追求什么名利、什么物质上的需求享受、什么快乐呢？

只有那永恒的才是最最珍贵的！永恒的爱！永恒的恩典！

能活着的每一天，都是恩典！好好珍惜你身边爱你的人和你爱的人，他们的存在并不是必然的。

Thank you my friends! For leaving lovely messages for me in "Garfield's Choir", showing me how you are concerned about my on-goings and telling me you missed me. Haha! (^_^) Much much appreciated.

I'm good, not very busy but pretty occupied. Sometimes I feel like blogging but have no time, sometimes I have a little time but not enough for me to blog all I want, sometimes I have all the time but dun feel like blogging and I don't wanna blog for the sake of blogging. So that's why my blog seemed to get 'mouldy', regrets. I have been up to scroll through "Garfield's Choir" and feed Hamham at times though. (^,<)

I am currently doing editing for 心花朵朵开(Love Blossoms) which will premiere on 28th May, coming Wed. My episodes are Ep 44-46. So well, it's still a long way to go. My next project is, still, 心花朵朵开! Yes, yes, there's a part two and I am, still, in it. Hahaha! I will be starting my script disscussion soon and production will start in early July for me. Oh yes, I will be doing 7 episodes for my new project. A great jump from just 3 episodes to 7 episodes! So it means it will be much more taxing for me as a junior producer, do pray for me (>_<)"

That's all for now folks! A few behind-the-scenes pics for you to savour...

Fyn's & Din's Bdae Celebration Pics

2008-05-04T02:21:00.003+08:00

火锅庆生会@鲜得来，Bugis

KTV @ PartiWorld, Shenton

学习去爱

2008-03-15T18:21:00.004+08:00

爱是一门学问

到底有谁真正懂得去爱

而能持之以恒呢

爱是放下自我

不以自己为中心

不以自己的心志和利益为出发点

不容易

譬如对方弄丢了你喜欢的东西

你能不气

不被自己的情绪左右

转而为对方着想

想他发现东西丢了时的慌张和焦急不安

不简单

学习

毕竟人与人之间的微妙关系

远比一件东西来得重要吧

不一定找得回

不一定买得回

但那绝对不能替代关系

不能替代独一无二的你

不能替代得来不易的缘分

我要珍惜

学习去爱

如果耶稣以自我为中心

我们就不会有今天

但他没有

他因为爱

爱着罪人而被钉十架

爱是一门学问

我会认真学习

认真去爱

爱着

Celina's birthday Celebration

2008-03-10T15:49:00.002+08:00

Celina's my spiritual auntie!!! (^_^) Photogenic and angelic.... Here are two videos which records some of the happenings during her birthday celebration. We sung her birthday songs in different languages leh, so multi-lingual! Hahaha!

n bu!ss!w

2008-02-21T18:48:00.006+08:00

平凡变得不平凡

绚丽

简单的生活有你就美

色彩扩大了范围

艳丽

黑白的画映因你改写

嘴角长时间上扬

甜蜜

想着你

想着一起

。。。。。。

同一时间

我到了云霄

也沉到深渊

无所谓

认了吧

愿意

为你

让我修补你的翅膀

不

让我

成为你的翅膀

翱翔在无边际的蓝天白云上

沉溺在紫红色的浪漫晚霞中

你

2008-02-17T00:14:00.002+08:00

你让我有了呼吸
每天醒来夜里睡时
昼夜都想你

你成了我生命姿彩
让我看到我从未见过的
美丽风景

（是）你让我着迷
望着你
我感觉不到我自己
整个世界
我的视线
都只有你

想要躲你
越逃开却揪得越紧

我的心为了你痛得我好痛
你带我到乐园却让我迷失

有一段时间没写歌了，今晚忽然心血来潮……其实，“你”这首歌早早就有了开头verse 1，但也只停留在开头很久。哈哈 ^、^ 老实说，这首歌还不算完整，总觉得还差了些什么，但就是想把它写出来。算是我的任性吧？在成熟的人，也有权利偶尔任性一下吧？

*若不怕耳朵受罪可点击“你”一标题，听我粗糙的唱一唱着首歌

Cell group CNY celebration

2008-02-16T22:14:00.005+08:00

"Tummy The Army" marched into Paradise On Earth for a sumptous meal
“你在拍我吗？爱拍哪里就拍哪里...”

My spiritual mummie (^_^)

Then we proceeded to KTV and had a KTV out of the usual.... Becos... A blackout happened and all was pitch black. This was what happened during the blackout (shot by my camera with flash):
Hmm... Mummie wants to drink milk... Had her fill I guess =p
Btw, the sister on her right was shouting “不要摸我”all the way during the black out... Apparently, nobody touched her and she was just 暗爽-ing. Kekeke (>o<) I've got a bunch of weird but fun-loving and adorable sisters. Haha.

Two loving sisters... Aw.... (~^_^~)

好久不见！(^,^)/

2008-02-15T01:25:00.011+08:00

Hahaha!! Yes yes, I've MIA-ed for quite a while, almost one month I suppose but dear Renie, my blog hasn't mould, at least it was still visited... Whahaha! =p

Well well, let me wish all friends a happy and blessed Chinese New Year! Happy birthday （人日）! And of course, a happy Valentine's Day! Yes yes, I know, they are all belated but still, these well wishes are from the bottom of my heart. (^_^)

Here's wat I have been busy with that had kept me away from updating my blog:
On 20th January, I realised there were "pimples" on my chin, 3 lined up diagonally in a column. I din't take it to heart cos I tot maybe I was just heaty. The "pimples" subsided the next day but new ones surfaced on my palm and some portion of my arms. Itchy? Yes, but still I din't think it was serious as I tot they would subside so shouldn't be a problem. IT WAS A PROBLEM... This persisted for several days, every day I wake up finding new bites on my body and obviously they were not pimples. Some were very itchy and swelled up.

I finally told my mother about it and we concluded that it might well be bed bugs. My father's room was infested before and now's my turn. So we decided to tear down the built-in furniture in my room to resolve the bed bugs problem and I suggested tearing down the ones in my brother's room as well since it was a matter of time his room may get the infestation. It had been almost 14 years... Of course, I paid for the tearing down, the paintworks and the furniture for both my brother's and my room. ~,~'" Then I understand why God wanted me to pay back my father's bills "little by little, step by step"... He knew this was going to happen, and if I had paid for my father's bills all at one go, I may have to sleep with the bed bugs longer and feed them till they are all fat and ugly. Praise the Lord! (Anyway, I paid off another card of my dad's and applied for funds transfer for him. The other bills have lessen through the monthly payments I made and my dad is able to manage them himself through funds transfer and paying them religiously monthly. I just hope and pray that he would do as he said he would.)

This is the challenging part: It was near CNY when this happened and I practically had to race against time to do all the refurbishing of my room. I wanted to get my room done by CNY if not it would be tedious when my relatives come visit during the festive season. Miraculously, I trust it was God's favour, the 装修/油漆师傅 whom we approach are right on the job! Today, we called, tommorow they came and completed the work in one day respectively.

Then my family went to IKEA to shop for furniture. We met with another problem. Even if we buy the furniture before CNY, delivery could only be done on the 11th Feb. We couldn't wait that long of course, my living room's packed with all the stuff in my brother's and my room. Luckily, my father runs a bus company. He called his driver to come with his 44-seater bus and helped us moved the furniture to my house. Lalala~ Praise the Lord!

Oh yes, I missed out a point. Before shopping for the furniture, I actually prayed that there would be items on promotion so that I can get furniture at discounted price. Then there is this TV bench that I wanted which is priced at $249 but the colour that I wanted was out of stock. I actually planned to settle for my second option for a TV bench. Then it occured to me that there are two on display! Maybe I could ask them to sell me one as an "As-Is" item? And I did, I got the TV bench that I wanted at $160. Praise God again! (^_^) There were some defects of course, just scratches acutally, but I got them all covered up. Hehehe! I'm blessed and happy.

Here's my room: Before and After.

Neat right?? Nice right??? Hehehe! =p
流过汗水得来的果食分外甜美 \(^o^)/

Note the Garfield stickers at the different corners of my room. There's a meaning for them to be where they are orh! You can decipher for yourself what they represent. (^_^) Those above are just a few to show you, there are more in my room. Hehehe!

As you know, IKEA furniture have to be assembled. Before I bought the furniture, I actually had lunch with two sisters and we were sharing how God is "dismantling our lives",I used the exact word, "dismantling". Do you know how tedious it is to dismantle and reassemble? I experienced it while assembling my furniture. Used a wrong screw for a certain hole, had to unscrew it and redo it. Just a small screw and foil the whole furniture. It's just like how some small part of our life went wrong and God is willing to go through the trouble to dismantle that and reassemble it again. It's REALLY VERY tedious. And God wants me to experience the very experience he wants me to go through, to learn, to understand. 这也应证了我所坚信的：未曾经历过，你可能“懂”但绝对无法“了解”。

What a long post... Naturally after not blogging for so long I suppose... So that's what I've been busy with admist of work. =。=" Btw, caught the movies I wanted to watch but had no time out of my busy schedule at a go during the free times in the weekdays this week. Lalala~^u^~ Watched "Atonement" today. Had been wanting to watch it ever since I read its review even before it start its run till now when it is ending its run. Hahaha! Glad I watched it. Happy.

If you are a thinker even when watching a movie, then you may enjoy Atonement.

Directed by Jim Wright, the director for Pride and Prejudice. Kiera Knightly blossoms under him. (^_^)

情感的内敛

眼神的交流

诚实的面对自己

认清楚真挚的爱

Fulfilling weekend \(^_^)/

2008-01-19T22:22:00.000+08:00

This weekend has been quite fulfilling for me (^_^)

Friday, I took a day's leave to bring my father to SGH for review. Remember I mentioned previously that the doctor said my father may have to do a second surgery to implant a pacemaker if his heart doesn't strengthen? Friday was the review to decide whether or not he had to undergo that surgery.

Praise the Lord!!! The doctor reviewed that my father's heart is recovering well! Though he has to continue on medication, a second surgery was not needed! Hallelujah! Then we went to have a meal outdoors. My father hasn't been eating outside food for quite a long time and my mother decided to "reward" him. Hehehe. Afterwhich, I sudden upon a suggestion of visiting T3 at Changi Airport since it's newly opened. Hohoho. Family outing. (A pity my brother's in NS, can't join.)

Saturday morning, I went for a shoot, acting part-time for my new project for another producer just for fun. Miss Photogenic in Star Search 2007 will make her debut in this drama. In a scene this morning, she had to be splashed by May Phua, Best Supporting actress for Star Awards 2007. Kawaiiso... (FYI, this doesn't mean cute which is Kawaii. What does it mean? ... Lalala... =p) Think shooting this drama will be quite an enjoyment since most of the artistes involved are veteran... You know, when drama is "naturalistically" drama.

Early evening, I had to go check the studio shooting for my current project. It's finally coming to an end soon, I'm left with a half day shoot outdoors and a half night shoot in studio on the 22nd and 24th respectively. Pray that everything will be smooth.

Thank God that though I'm overlapping two projects, the Executive Producer in my new project is merciful enough to wait for me to finish editing my current on before I do any filming for my new project. *phew* (~_^)

Sunday! That's tomorrow! (^_^) Heee, Sabbath day. It will definitely be fulfilling! I just pray that my parents will go to church tomorrow and pray that someday, even without me asking or driving them, they will go to church.

After service and cell group, I have to rush back to help my brother give away his chinchillas that are at my auntie's place at the moment. 7 of them! To Woodlands and Tampines! For Christ's sake! What was my brother thinking when he made the request for me to give his chinchillas away using the car???!!! (*_*) MEOW! O God, may the erksome smell of the chinchillas turn to aroma and may I just fix my eyes and heart on Jesus while doing this. Thank God, that my brother isn't dragging this on anymore.

Still lots to settle but one by one, step by step, grace upon grace...

Off to bed. Oyasuminasai.

今天早晨

2008-01-13T10:28:00.000+08:00

早起身
为的只是要陪你们到你们舒服的教堂
本看到你换上外出衣服
开心
虽然换衣服之前
你不知何故地叹气
要去取车时
听到洗衣服的声音
妳说你不去
用还未准备午餐做“理由”
我照样去取车
希望你会去
在楼下等着
快迟到了
上楼看个究竟
竟看到你换回家居衣服
你叫我自己去
用了“她不去”做“理由”
我坦然我是为你们去诸圣堂的
你竟然叫我去我自己的（教堂）
天啊
我不知道要对你说什么好
你根本都失了重点
再来，你若不去就不能致电通知我一声吗？
任由我在楼下枯等

神哪
除去我生气的灵
因我不该
如果这需要更多的时间
就请你赐恩典
并让我有耐性
坚固我对你的信心
让我不要看人
而要看你
我伤心
你更伤心
你却有你完美的时间

Yesterday, 9th Jan 08

2008-01-10T13:11:00.000+08:00

*phew* I'm glad it was yesterday! So much things happened plus the insufficient sleep made me sleep for over 12 hours from 9plus last night dozing off on my desk in my room till this morning 11am. Whahaha! I'm a pig! o^_^o

Had studio filming from 2130-2430 the night before yesterday but only managed to begin filming at 2200 becos the previous group overran. I was quite worried that I might not be able to finish filming or overrun till late as I have to wake up early yesterday to attend the opening ceremony for my new project. (Yes, I haven't finish filming the current project but my next project is starting. ~_~) While waiting for the previous group to handover, I can only murmur and pray, "God, multiply my time! Multiply my time! God, multiply my time!" And praise the Lord, I finished shooting everything that was scheduled and only overran 10 minutes! Lalala! (^_^) Glory be to God!

Woke at 6plus to attend the opening ceremony of my new project. *_* Tired. BUT reading the Word at the start of the day gives me energy and peace that I need. (I can be real grumpy and nasty when I have insfficient sleep, esp upon waking up.) There was a bad jam in PIE, probably an accident and I was worried that I will be late. I pray again, "God, clear the jam so that I can reach in time and not be a bad testimony by being late." Hahaha! The jam did clear in a while and I was able to reach in time. Upon alighting the taxi, I was still able to tell the cab driver how to get out. (He wasn't familiar with the routes and had a bad sense of hearing, I had to repeat my instructions twice to direct him to Mediacorp. I'm glad I did not flare up or even be upset with him. (^_^) Praise and glory to God!)

The opening ceremony was held in a temple in Toa Payoh. I'm actually quite burdened to see only a small percentage of the group who are in the family of Christ. Most of the group took incense to pray and some are free thinkers...

"The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few." (Matt 9:37) Hope I'll be able to plant as many seeds as I can and let God make them grow. Hope that it will not be my burden but the burden of Christ, for He has carried the cross for us all. It shall not be my strength nor my work but the love and grace of God. I can do everything THROUGH him who gives my strength. (Phil 4:13)

Lalala... I'm blessed and happy! (^_^)

This drama is called 心花朵朵开, let it be 神的果子朵朵开！Hahaha!

I reached home about 5plus in the evening, just as I open the window of my room, I hear someone shouting hysterically, “他爸爸跌倒了！帮忙叫ambulance! ” Then there was reply from the void deck that they have already called the ambulance. I looked down... Oh god! An old man was lying unconcious at the foot of stairs. Clearly, he had fallen. He is from my block, living on the 9th floor though I do not know him personally.

Immediately I raised my hand and started praying for him and his family, for the ambulance to reach asap and for the traffic to be smooth, for God to send someone to the hospital if he has not yet know Christ, for him to be saved not just in the flesh but in his spirit.

As the ambulance arrived around 10minutes after, the paramedics lifted him onto the stretcher and sent him to the hospital. There was a bit of regret in me after the ambulance left: Why din't I go down personally to pray for the uncle? Why did I just pray from afar? ... ...

I then went to bathe. After my shower, my mother immediately tell me about the trouble my uncle (who is a driver in my father's company) has created. He did not take the attendence of the students who were supposed to board his bus and a primary student had gone missing. (The school calls for a meeting with him and my father today.) The parents alarmed the police and my uncle had to be interrogated and he was not able to fetch the 5pm workers. The astonishing part was that my father wanted to fetch the workers after knowing the situation! The doctor said he is not suppose to drive for 6 months. Not a car, moreover a bus!!!

By God's grace, the kid called the parents in the nick of time and my uncle can make it to fetch the workers. I was so angry with my father I reprimanded him. Even if my uncle cannot make it he should not want to drive! What if something really happens while he was driving, it is not just his own life but the life of all the passengers he is putting a risk. We do not know what can happen, you cannot deny this fact. The doctor said you cannot drive for six months that means you cannot! If you can be your own doctor, then what do we need doctors for? Worse comes to worst, just ring up the workers i/c and ask them to take cab and we shall reimburse them.

There are so many unexpected incidents around me recently I just cannot think that they do not concern me...

Then at night after dinner my mother told me to have a talk with my father one of these days. She was lamenting my father's unheeding attitude and his conversation with his RC friends to want to join them for meals outside after the wound on his legs has healed. Her tone and her laments... I'm weary... My parents just don't communicate to each other, their conversations are limited to skin-deep... I do not know how long I can allow this to go on while continuing to encourage them to communicate to each other. My encouragement sometimes can turn to begging. (sigh)

Strengthen me O Lord! Deliver me from my worries and my burdens!

I fell asleep on my desk while reading the Word for advice... Thank God that he actually granted me sleep while reading His word, a peaceful sleep till this morning. Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. (Matt 11:28)

God is good! All the time! And all the time, God is good! (^_^)

I'm blessed and happy!

我爱你！神更爱你！

2008-01-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

亲爱的朋友和家人

我宁愿你现在嫌我烦、笑我痴、说我怪
也不愿意在永恒的国度中失去你……

祈祷着

Let Your kingdom come!

感恩。惋惜……

2008-01-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

1358h 听闻消息：MC爆毙

吓？！顿然……

1400h 致电同事确认消息

还是无法置信
前天才看到他

1415h 接获通知上楼开会

……
回想与他相处过的画面

1449h 见到小玲蹲在服装间一隙哭
强忍泪水，递上纸巾

1515h 开会
冷静=专业？
再专业也可以表露多些怜悯吧？
更难过
眼泪打滚，却得把它吞下

散会
脑袋空了
MC
…真的不在了
一个常带欢笑给周围朋友……的朋友
走了
一个敬业乐业的演员
离开了
一个人
就这么突然的
死了

God... Why? Why did you allow him being taken away so suddenly? ...
Why?

Well-tempered
Spontaneous
Humourous
Filial
Fun-loving

Now...
Gone.
Just like this

My Comforter, comfort the sorrowful hearts and the mourning souls...

回到家看新闻
MC King猝死

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31 December 2007

2008年都还没开始
你就走了

59 comments
留给他

人稍纵即逝
。。。。。。

同样是呼吸困难引发的
40岁的他走了
52岁的父亲蒙恩存活了
我是多么的感恩
如果我父亲也遭如此恶运
我恐怕……
承受得了吗？
……

感恩

惋惜

There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die... (Ecclesiastes 3:1-2a)

"Life is a temporary assignment" (Rick Warren- The Purpose Driven Life)

Show me, O Lord, my life's end and the numbers of my days, let me know how fleeting is my life. (Psalm 39:4)

In remembrance

2008 Resolutions

2008-01-01T17:48:00.000+08:00

1) Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord is the Rock forever. (Isaiah 26:4) To have a steadfast faith in the Lord and to always trust Him no matter how bad a situation I may seem to be in or how unexpected bad events can happen to my life.
2) Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. (Psalm 143:8) To read the word of God every morning without fail for it to vitalise me from the start of the day and for God to teach me to do his will.
3) Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spirit fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliciton, faithful in prayer. (Romans 12:11-12) May my fire for the Lord be always burning and as I serve in church or at my workplace. (^_^)
4) In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven. (Matthew 5:16) That I may be a testimony for Christ to my friends and my family as I continue to pray for their salvation!
5) Honour your father and your mother, as the Lord your God has commanded you, so that you may live long and that it may go well with you in the Land of the Lord your God is giving you. (Deuteronomy 5:16)
All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ and gave us the ministry of reconciliation (2 Corinthians 5:18) May Christ the Lord of reconciliation teach me and guide me. May there be a reconciliation of family relationships within my family among one another. And may there by a reconciliation of relationship between every family member and God.

2007 HAD been an eventful year, very... happening. *phew* Thank God! Thank God that it belongs to history now and I thank God the most for capturing me back to his side and for showing me Jesus's love and grace. (^_^) Lalala...

So now for 2008! Looking forward to it, to spending it with the Lord! (~^_^~) Above are my resolutions and brothers and sisters who read them please pray for me k? Hehe. So nice to have brothers and sisters praying, like the army of warriors God has blessed this lito Garfield with... Kekeke!

I'd been thinking about 2008 resolutions in the last week of the past year and I am prompted by the verses from the Bible that ties in with my hopes and wishes for this year. Listed them down so that as the days go on for this year, I can look back and remind myself at any point of time. Whos knows what may happen? Except the Creator!

Been long since I ever thought seriously about new year's resolutions... seemed to be a school day activity. Haha! Reminiscence... So well, let's 拭目以待！p(^_^)q

Whatever happens... Fix your eyes upon Jesus!

定睛仰望主耶稣

祂是全能救主

定睛仰望主耶稣

祂是生命泉源

当走到荒野幽谷里

祂是光必会引领你

当黑暗将你笼罩

只要定睛仰望耶稣

定睛仰望主耶稣
祂是全能救主
定睛仰望主耶稣
祂是生命泉源

灵疲惫亲近祂呼求

祂是力量必会使你刚强

乏力软弱不堪时候
只要定睛仰望耶稣

Christmas celebrations 2007

2007-12-29T01:16:00.000+08:00

This Christmas is especially meaningful (^_^) because of Christ and knowing Him, experiencing His love...

CHRISTmas, a season of love and gift... Christ sums it all \(^_^)/ Give thanks and meditate.

Trials * Perseverance * Faith

2007-12-20T01:46:00.000+08:00

Whilst having my late dinner close to eleven after reaching home from work, my mother tells me that one of my father's bus driver called to say he will be quitting at the end of year 2007 today. (Btw, for those who doesn't know, my father runs a bus company.)

My father went through a heart op and is unfit for driving within half a year. He used to drive one of the 5 buses he owns to cut costs but have to ask one of my uncles to drive it since his operation. Now, a driver says he wants to quit at the end of this year which is like, "Hey boss, you have to find someone else in less than 2 weeks!" (*_*)

I do not know how to manage all these in my own strength... 2007 has truely been a difficult year for me... Lots of ups and downs... I think I can manage, but it will definitely be so so so much more difficult without God. I am so so so so so glad that God called me back! (^_^) I can do all things through Him who gives me strength! (Phil 4:13)

I prayed to Abba Father for Him to provide either someone who can replace the driver for my father's business to continue on or for someone who will offer a good price to take over my father's business and put the business, which is long on-the-rocks, to end.

Then I asked the Lord why I see nothing but darkness in front of my once again and a vision appeared. A hand. A hand that I can grasp onto tightly. And even if darkness is ahead of me, I can grasp onto THE hand and it will lead me on. I MUST have the faith to hold on to it for it will lead me on a right path, He will lead me to light! Hallelujah! Another vision: James... James chapter 1. I flipped the Bible to James chapter one and to my amazement (seems like I will never get accustomed to God's surprises), there it says, "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." (James 1:2-4)

I see....

Hahaha! The Lord shall provide!

Something outta the topic: My blog title picture shrunk, has it? I can't seemed to make it back to the original size no matter how I tried. Hmm.... (~_<)

What Is The Cost? ... Priceless

2007-12-10T02:38:00.000+08:00

What is the cost of Friendship?
......
Priceless.

What is the cost of Love?
......
Priceless.

What is the cost of Jesus dying on the cross for our sins?

Priceless.
He did that because of love.

I saw two good friends quarrel tonight. And neither is willing to be the first to talk or do anything about it after which. Is it so difficult to let go of your ego? Where is the love? Does it mean you are weak just to be the first to talk, sit beside the other party, perform a little gesture of concern?

If you had experienced Jesus's love and fix your eyes upon Him, bow to him and every weaknesses will be made strong in Christ. Hallelujeh! We are living testimonies for Christ, the love He has for us should naturally flow out from us.

Some things just could not wait. What if one of the party meet with an accident tonight? This will become a lifelong regret, won't it? Anything can happen, we do not know the future, just like how my father collapse and dianogsised with heart attack... Why do something that may let you regret for life? It reminds me of Ephesians 4:26-27, "In your anger do not sin: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold." Abba Father has a reason for letting us know this. He do not want us to regret, to suffer in pain. He wants us to be filled with joy everyday and live a prosperous life in Him. That is why He says in Matthew for us to reconcile our relationship with someone who has hurt/offended us, before we bring him an offering.

Then I thank God for the priceless friendships I have, Jasmine, Lyn, Serene, Yimin, Shuyi, Jane, HL, Lyelin, Liting.... And I thank God for my relationship with Him! PRICELESS!

P.S. I thank God and praise Him! My brother went to church early today by himself. He did not tell me but I got to know it when Serene sms me. He is willing to seek the Lord! Hallelujah! \(^_^)/ Thank you Jesus for showing me your love and teaching me to love. Lalala!

Going to bed now, have to bring my father to the polyclinic for wound dressing then to the hospital to follow up. Just so much thoughts tonight that I have to blog about. Tonight is also the 25 Star Awards, seeing the TV pioneers all old and shrivelled unlike the past lets me reflect on how frial man are. Only through God we will be victorious and free and alive! Many other thoughts but I really have to go to bed... Zzzzz

Be blessed!

2007-12-08T19:28:00.000+08:00

http://www.fcbc.org.sg/linktracker.asp?name=dec02_e_768K_wmv&id=1151

The above link will take you to a sharing by motivational speaker Nick Vujicic last Sunday. He was borned without any limbs, no arms, no legs. His father is a pastor and his mother was a nurse. Nobody knows why he was born like this, medical science could not explain it. He and his family went through pain and emotional torment, see how he came to know God's love and grace for him and see God's power!

Be blessed!

Let go! And let God...

2007-12-08T17:44:00.000+08:00

Amazing!!!!

I just prayed for my brother, laying hands on him and by the power of the holy spirit, he teared. I do not know how he felt because his friend came right after the prayer so we stopped our conversation.

My brother and I had not been talking since... so long I can't even remember when. Even when my father went through the surgery, I only spoke to him when needed. My heart was hardened. Then there was one day when church service talked about forgiveness, it struck me that I should forgive my brother for the hurts he caused. Yes, he actually caused me hurt without me even identifying. (That's the reason why I do not want to talk to him.)

Why can God forgive us and sent Jesus to love us and even die for us but I cannot forgive my brother for the hurts he caused? What grounds have I got? What rights have I got? Nothing! Absolutely nothing. Ever since that sermon at least half a month ago, the holy spirit has been prompting me to talk to my brother and pray for him. So I did, ask some seemed-to-be-concerned question and sort of 'talk' to him. Pray for him on my own but not aloud for him in front of him. And yes, I remembered when I prayed aloud for my mother a month ago, I swore that I would pray aloud for my brother one day. And yes again, I had a vision when my father was in the hospital that I would pray for my family aloud one day. BUT I have been putting it off. I was afraid, scared that I'm not strong enough to pray for them in front of them. I prayed and have been praying for them on my own, isn't that sufficient? Obviously not!

So I put it off. I prayed though, for God to arm me with courage and strength so that then, I can pray for them aloud. But as I was worshipping the Lord just now, he showed me:
1) Pray, and help will be on its way!
2) God is a potter, allow him to take me and mould me, use me and fill me!
3) God breathes in me and I will rise on eagle's wings!

I have to let go! I thought I did but I did not actually. I have to let go and let God! Allow God to work in me and mould me, use me. By His power, I will be victorious! Hallelujah! By His strength, will my weakness become strong! Hallelujah! He is my rock, I will not falter!

I knelt and bowed down to Him, admitting my foolishness and weakness. Therefore, after my worship, I went to talk to my brother. He was willing to talk and we were conversing! Feels weird but a conversation. Wow! After so many years. Then I prayed for him and amazingly, words that came out from my mouth was from the holy spirit, I was able to pray for him as what he needed, what God knows he needed. Hallelujah! And he teared. Holy Spirit has indeed touch his heart.

I will hope and pray that one day he will go to church. And through him may my mother's heart be soften for the Holy Spirit to work... my mother has a soft spot for my brother. Praise the Lord!

My dear friends, fix your eyes upon Jesus. Do not see what you can do but what God can do! \(^_^)/

色戒

2007-12-08T17:26:00.001+08:00

如果邝裕民能够从军

如果和王佳芝练习“男女那事”的是邝裕民

如果易家没有临时搬离香港

如果那晚老曹没有来瞎搅和

如果王佳芝那晚没有跑掉

如果易先生没有对麦太太起色心

如果王佳芝没本事诱易先生

如果易先生没有对麦太太产生真感情

如果老吴没有用“忠诚”压王佳芝

如果王佳芝接受了邝裕民那一吻

如果易先生不是送钻石给麦太太

如果钻石不是女人最好的朋友

如果……

如果戒色

情窦初开

2007-12-08T17:00:00.000+08:00

Went to Tampines on Wenesday to hand in my father's claim form and met a rare gentleman. It's so hard to meet a gentleman nowadays but thank God he made me meet one to let me know my heart is still feeling towards man.

As I walk towards the lift from the basement carpark, a guy enters from the other side of the lift lobby and was walking towards the lift as well. He was nearer to the lift as compared to me but he actually stopped outside the lift and held the lift for me to enter first. WOW! (~^_^~)

He was wear a white long-sleeve shirt with sleeves folded just below the elbow and polished black long pants. Tall, lanky and tanned. As the lift opened when we reached the ground floor, he pressed the button for door open and allowed me to go out first. WOW! WOW! Such a gentleman. I am no beauty and not a girly girl, never did I expect someone would do that for me... Kekeke... Touched. BUT don't guess too much, nothing happened after we exited the lift and went separate ways.

Two days ago, I saw this mtv for Leehom's 第一个清晨. I knew this was a nice song but never did I know that its mtv was so sweet. Simple, but sweet.

Like the scenerio of composing a song for loved one and the other party can just listen quietly after waking up, then sit side by side to enjoy eah others presence. Simple, but sweet. (^_^) If one day that can happen to me... Then after that I thought: It would be even better if we can worship the Lord together in love every morning as we wake up... Simply sweet. Hehe.

1st Dec 2007

2007-12-08T16:14:00.000+08:00

That nite, I went to a gathering wth my cell group. We had BBQ and after which proceeded upstairs to watch a documentary which TVB produced:《向世界出发之以色列的苦路》

This documentary touched my heart... How Jesus died for us... How he bore the cross (our sins)... How He cared for us even when he was filled with much pain... How He loves us! All these I know, but would never be able to understand fully, now refreshed. I wrote a song inspired by the Holy Spirit and would like to share with you and may I urge you to watch the documentary as well and experience the lavish love of the great God. (^_^)

若非有你

圣子降为世人

带来奇妙救恩

受愚昧的人侮辱

却仍背负十架行苦路

我从没做过什么

值得你如此为我

我算得了什么

你却日日眷顾我

救世主啊

无条件爱

伟大牺牲

为救世人

主耶稣呀

若非有你

洗净我罪

我要怎么活

我要每天都感恩

为你的爱为十架

我永远都属你

若非有你（耶稣）

我是谁

十架的重担

你可选择放

你却因为爱

行了神的道

Updates

2007-12-08T16:03:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging, busy with my father's discharged life and busy preparing Christmas presents (^_<)

My father is discharged on 29th November and is recuperating at home now. The expenses for wound dressing is quite high if a nurse were to come to our house to do it, so I'm bringing my father to the polyclinic everyday and private clinic on Sunday to dress his wounds.

My mother was quite hostile to my father on the first two days of my father's discharge but better after that. Thank God! She is very stubborn on her thinking though, it seems that what I tell er has no power and she will not heed them. So well, I have to go through a longer way by getting people of medical backgrounds to advise her. (*_*) I have been praying for God to give me patience to deal with my mother everyday, pray for me as well brothers and sisters.

Christmas is approaching, the day of Jesus's birth. Hallelujah! As we recieve gifts and presents this festive, may we not forget the greatest gift we have--- Christ Jesus! Fill our hearts with thanksgiving and praise! And may the fervor and zeal for the Lord be everlasting! Merry merry CHRISTmas! \(^)_(^)/

My VIRGIN episode!

2007-11-26T23:20:00.000+08:00

The first whole episode of chinese drama TV serials directed by ME! Hehe, it is going to show on 27th November 2007, 天堂鸟第11集. Do watch it and give me your comments, any comments will do, good, bad, terrible, lousy, average, ok la, blah blah blah, and I will do my best to improve on the various areas I am lacking in. Only one episode in this whole drama so catch it if you are free ok? ONE and ONLY virgin work. "(^,^)7

There is this little verse that I had read this morning and would like to share it with my dear friends:

The more Christ's love within us grows,

The more His graciousness outflows;

And when we face a fiery test,

His love we then will manifest. --Hess

This is so true I feel. His love and grace comes hand in hand to us and for us. When you encounter God's great love, you will experience his grace in so many areas of your life. I did... and will continue to do so!

The doctor says my dad will be discharged as soon as he needs not feed on antibiotics through drip and when his leg wound is clean of inflammation. They took samples of the leg wound for lab tests and are waiting for results. The hospital will send a nurse to the house to dress and clean his wound daily after he is discharged except for Saturdays and Sundays, so pray that I would not have to work on the mornings of Saturdays and Sundays so that I can drive him to the polyclinic after he is discharged.

I think my mother may have caught the flu virus from me. She was blowing her nose quite frequently tonight but she denied that she is sick. ...Haizzz, she is constantly in denial. She still rejects to go to the hospital to visit my dad and I gave up on asking her to go. Then the Holy Spirit made it clear to me: she is in fear. Lots of fear in her heart, fears from the hurts in the past, fears of the present situation and fears of the future uncertainties... Pray for her ok?

There are so many things to ask of the Lord, for my family, for my friends, for my friends' families, for myself.... I wonder how long Father's prayer list is, haha. But Jesus says, "Ask and it will be given to you" so I ask (^_^) I'm so happy to be a found sheep! Lalala!
Dear brothers and sisters, "Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." (Romans 12:12)

God will make a way!

2007-11-20T14:02:00.000+08:00

I'm still sick.... Can't visit my father at the hospital in case I pass the virus to him. I wouldn't want to do anything now that can complicate matters. My father is already in the hosiptal for close to a month now.

God works miracles. He knows that I am worried about my father and would want to find out how he is, accompany him in his ward... I called the hospital yesterday evening to find out his condition. To my surprise, they transferred him out from high dependency single ward to a four-bedded ward on Sunday night and the POINT is: there is a phone to every bed in the four-bedded ward! I can call my father and talk to him! Thank God and praise the Almighty! I wouldn't have to worry about my father being bored and facing four walls by himself as when he was in the high dependency single ward now that he is in the four-bedded ward and what's more, I can call him and chat with him even when I'm sick and cannot go to the hospital to visit him! Hallelujah! (*Note: There is no phone in the high dependency single ward but there is a phone to every bed in the four-bedded ward.) It's amazing isn't it? It sure is! (^_^) God is amazing isn't He? He sure is! (~^.^~)

God is amazing! I went to the bank yesterday to pay my father's bills and make some enquiries. His credit bills alone are actually much more than I can bear, not to mention his business on the rocks. My cash are actually locked in fixed deposit and SAYE, closing which would either make me lose interests or incur a closure fee upon pre-mature withdrawal. I have actually to planned to withdraw my FD anyway since I have no other solutions. However, God gave me a way out which I've got nothing to lose. He unlocked my SAYE cash while still giving me pro-rated interests and without any closure fee when the teller lady proposed me to switch my SAYE account to My Savings Account when I enquired about how My Savings Account works out of curiosity at the counter. Praise the Lord! I really give thanks to Him. This amount allows me to pay off at least two of my father's credit bills by this month's payday. I shall have to scrim and save to pay off other bills in time to come.

I hope and pray that my sharing of God's works in my life will encourage my dear friends and be touched by His amazing grace. For He has showed me that His grace is sufficient for me and though I am still facing a lot of difficulties, He let me trust in Him and not worry about tomorrow.

Matthew 6:25-34
25"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
28"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Sick ~_~

2007-11-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

终于不支病倒了
已经病了第三天了
两天没去医院陪爸爸了
在家休养
要赶快好起来
太多事得处理
身体弱
做起事来事倍功半

烧退了
喉咙发炎也好些了
该死的伤风却还纠缠着
病魔
快离我远去吧

我偷闲整理了一些照片
更新了Garfield's Artworks
(^_^)

爸爸还在医院
被隔离开了
院方担心他迟迟不愈合的脚伤受感染
请继续为他祷告
让他的脚伤能好些
让他能早日出院

我能为他做的始终有限
我尽力了
还会继续努力
但有些事情还得他亲自处理

神啊！
请继续眷顾这个家

Who Am I

2007-11-10T00:47:00.000+08:00

Who Am I by Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

When God's LOVE is so great.....

2007-11-10T00:02:00.000+08:00

Two nights ago, I talked to my mother for close to 4 hours after I came back from the hospital. Finally she is willing to talk to me after 3 days of not sharing with me her thoughts, quite an achievement. Haha! I din't do anything la but I guess God makes her talk it all out... Well, not all, but pretty much.

Cried with her for 15minutes when she broke down in tears then I prayed aloud in front of her. She was shaking her head when I prayed but praying managed to calm her down. Then I got her to bathe and I bathed after her.

After my shower, I walked into my room then took out my chinese bible. I prayed for God to speak to me with regards to my mother, even through me to her. Then I randomly flipped to a page but something triggered me to flip to another page which I had bookmarked eons ago. I dun even remember reading that page before. By God's grace, He led me to Revelations chapter 12. As I read through the chapter, I smiled. God is good! He let me see his love for me as well as for my mother, lifted my worries and calmed my heart. He told me clearly that the grudges my mother has will be cleared by angels and Satan will fail. Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Hallelujah! I wanted to share the chapter with my mom that very night at the right chance.

Continued talking to her (actually more of listening) and told her I want to tell her a story from the bible before going to bed. She was quite obstinately rejectful but I read it to her anyway while she was preparing to go to bed. I do not know how much has gotten into her but I pray God will speak to her. By God's grace, I believe that God will minister to my mother in his own way and by Faith, I will believe!

I will wait for God to ring me a bell to pray aloud for my dad and for my brother and for my whole family.
I will readily pray for them when God's time comes!
I will walk by Faith and not by sight!
I will be strengthened!
Abba Father will take care of me like how he remembers every stars' names, counting them one by one! He will too take care of my family!

I post this up to share with my dear friends the miraculous doings of God and his great love. Hope this sharing might bless those who are also undergoing life's torments. Nothing too big is big enough, that God is unable to solve and nothing too small is small enough, for God to care. Do what you can and leave what you cannot to God.

When God's LOVE is so great, you stand in awe!

今天都因为昨天……

2007-11-04T23:39:00.000+08:00

今天发生的事情太多
很难一口气诉说

我早上去了崇拜
昨天犯了太多太多的罪
今天天父却始终不舍弃
唱的、道的、读的、祈祷的
都仿佛为了我设定
感谢主！感谢！

我承认了我的软弱
我需要主医治我的家庭
我在天父跟前
无忌惮地哭了
放肆的、忏悔的、受恩典的
泪流

我如此的不配
但祂始终差遣了祂的子女
向我说话
用祂的话语
跟我说话

2 Chronicles 33:12-13
In his (Manasseh) distress he sought the favor of the Lord his God and humbled himself greatly before the God of his fathers. And when he prayed to him, the Lord was moved by his entreaty and listened to his plea; so he brought him back to Jerusalem and to his kingdom. Then Manasseh knew that the Lord is God.

到医院
上了厕所后
看见妈妈在两个表姐和表姐夫的拥护下哭
莫名
进病房
爸爸说医生建议他动第二次手术
因他的心跳还是不规律
我以为
以为妈妈是为此哭
非然
妈妈在嫉妒
嫉妒爸爸的同事跟他太熟络
妈妈心里从前就积累了对爸爸的不满
这次爆发了

担心
担心妈妈的更年期到了
这是导火线
祈求妈妈不要往极端想
不要陷入忧郁症

啊啊啊
又多了
又重了
烦恼
担子

主给了我一个方案
祂要我在父母面前
大声地为他们祷告

啊
我有帮他们祷告
但都是在私底下
默默的
但今天

……

赐我勇气！
赐我力量！

好累

父亲的状况

2007-10-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

爸爸今天傍晚已经从加护病房转到High Dependency Ward，若情况良好，再过2-3天就会转去普通病房。谢谢各位的祷告，上帝的聆听！感谢主！请继续为父亲和我的家人祷告。

真正的挑战将在爸爸出院后开始，得重新整理他的生意和经济问题。……还真是头大！我会担心，担心自己应付不来，但是担心也没有用，只得一个个、一步步去解决。相信上帝会赐我智慧！相信！

哈哈！如果可以的话，我真希望能发一场横财。但是不可能：“不要仗势欺人，也不要因抢夺而骄傲；若财宝加增，不要放在心上。”（诗篇62：10）我现在只能尽我所能，其他的靠神。

好久没有祷告、没有靠神、没有去教会，我想，有整整6-7年了。近2-3年，祂都有在呼唤我回到祂身边，但我都摆在一边，没想到一步比一步强烈。哈哈！果然，我们永远无法理解了解上帝给我们安排的路。我不是个好人，只求上帝怜悯……

请为我父亲祷告

2007-10-25T23:18:00.000+08:00

今天中午，老豆从樟宜医院转进中央医院并立即被推进手术房进行心脏绕道手术。非常高风险：因为他患有其他疾病，手术可能导致中风、肾衰竭，或失血过多。

感谢主！将近六小时的手术成功将爸四条阻塞的血管替换。然而，做完手术后，爸的血压表高，心脏也再度跳动不稳定。为了安全起见，医生把爸送进加护病房观察。爸目前的情况还没有度过危险期，必须再观察两、三天。

明天一早我将同妈去医院看他，希望他到时已经恢复意识……

医生说，尽管这次的手术成功，将来心血管阻塞的情况可能还会复发。爸病情好转后得多多督促他的饮食，也不能让他太操劳。希望爸会乖乖照顾自己。

好多压力
好无助

爸会康复的！因为大家都在为他祷告、因为上帝在聆听、因为上帝会怜悯他、医治他！爸会康复的！

亲爱的朋友们，谢谢你们的祷告！请再接再厉，为我的父亲祈祷。感激万分！

老豆入院了(~,~)

2007-10-24T01:26:00.000+08:00

凌晨1点-- 刚拍完戏回到家欲去冲凉之际，妈从房间走了出来：“你老豆进Changi Hospital了。” 我一时反应不过来：“吓？！”

老豆近日来频频咳嗽，看了医生、吃了药也没见得好转。今天回家途中，他突然在街上晕了过去。也不知道过了多久又自己醒过来。回到家，冲了凉，吃了晚餐，他决定到医院做检查。医生听他说近来咳嗽不止，甚至有时还会咳到喘就立即替他做了心电扫描……

心脏病。老豆多了心脏病。

……

已经患有糖尿病和高血压的老豆，逃不过这两种疾病的“好朋友”。

幸好明天没有外景，只是预备了回公司看片。明早要和妈到医院看老豆……
幸好老豆不是在驾车的时候晕倒……

老豆不抽烟、不喝酒却无故招来这一套疾病。

朋友，
要及时行乐，
要多关心父母。

后话：游览SHE网站时曾看过艾拉的部落格留言（如下）

發言人：Ella
發言時間：2007-09-18 16:57:02

最近
因為HEBE拍戲
所以空閒的時間很多
有很多時間在家裡
在家的感覺真的很好
更好得是我有家人陪伴我
我不是一個人
幸福
就是這樣每天的圍繞著我
但仔細想想
他們一直都在
不是因為我在家
他們才出現
原來我一直因為工作的忙碌
常常忽略了
你們呢
是不是也常常忽略了
每天都存在身邊的幸福

因為學校課業
因為朋友生活
因為追星活動
因為太多太多的事
而忽略了重要的幸福呢

有些時候靜下心想想
你一切的不平凡
都是來自
這個平凡的家庭
是家造就了現在的你
你怎能忽略了自己的家人呢

天啊
我要去打電話給我媽媽了
還有老爸

你還在幹麻
還不去跟他們說聲

我愛你們
謝謝你們

去去去

喜碧新剧

2007-10-21T18:51:00.000+08:00

哇哈哈哈！期待已久的《斗牛要不要》终于将在台湾上映了！好期待它在新加坡发布的那一天噢！虽然喜碧的演技一向都不如艾拉，但还是要支持支持。希望斗牛这一环也不会让我失望\(^_^)/

后记：斗牛不是指莫斯科的那种拿着红布耍牛儿，这里的斗牛是指篮球的1对1。

执行导演

2007-10-20T18:16:00.000+08:00

2002年7月29日正式踏入新传媒工作，从PA（外景助理）到AP（助导/副导演）到今年的六月升上执行导演。这六年多一路走来，我想我还是幸运的。跟过的导演：明哲、宝莲、佩媚、Paul、文辉、龙敏、来玲、丽婷、碧珠，从他们每个人的身上都学到宝贵的学问。虽然没有机会拍古装或时代剧是一个遗憾，但是我还是幸运的，跟的导演都是好导演，多数都肯教，也没什么脾气。我对戏剧的热忱之所以还在，也是因为跟了好导演……有些导演会有意无意地泯灭你对戏剧的热爱。谢谢你们！(^_^)

拍戏是一门深厚的学问，一门哲学，不简单。之所以它不简单，深藏了许多奥妙，它好玩。戏，本身也不简单。它是人生经历，可静、可动、可生、可硬……我的形容词不能够概括它，因为它包含了太多太多了。不同的人，不同的生活背景，不同的生活经历，不同的人生阶段，对同一件事会有不同的体验，不同的应对方式。就算最简单的喜怒哀乐，也有不同层次的喜怒哀乐。不简单，好玩。别误会，我是在玩，但也是认真的在玩。(^,^)

制作戏剧需要多方面的配合，是群体工作。TEAMWORK很重要，每一位工作人员，每一个岗位都很重要。这不仅限于电视戏剧，舞台剧、电影也是一样的。任何一个人配合得不好，都会影响整个制作。所以，伙伴很重要，能成为朋友的伙伴要珍惜。(^_^)

很多人都问过我，升做导演好玩吗？这个问题的答案怎么能用三言两语回答呢？……Anyway，我现在还只是个执行导演，也许还会被调回去做副导演。当然，我希望能够继续拍戏、导戏。
尽管做了六年的副导演，当导演跟副导演的体验还是非常不同的。很多其他的东西必须重新适应，也有不同的考量。就算你是个再好的副导演，你也未必会是个好导演。我必须承认，做副导演，我多数胜任有余，但现阶段的我当导演，还有许许多多的不足之处，还需要学更多。当然，没有人一生下来就会跑，我明白这个道理，但急性子的我得费心思说服自己要慢慢来。我也会怕，担心拍得不好，担心不好要求重拍会使老板们对我失去信心、怕累剧组浪费经费，但明知道不好却又不重拍会过不了自己这一关。我想做到最好，但也明白以我现在的资历是达不到自己设下的水准，把水准降低又不甘心。唉，我没有压力，却给自己加了许多无形的压力，自寻烦恼。哼！我还真犯贱呢！哈哈！

谢谢关心我的朋友们，我喜欢当导演，正在认真地玩着呢！(^_^) 接踵而来的挑战，我会尽我所能去应对，再接再厉！Come what may! (^o^)

武装自己，让自己坚强

挑战自己，让自己成长

面对自己，取长补短

接受批评，反省进步

未来的自己，将来的高峰！

Reading disorder???

2007-10-20T00:47:00.000+08:00

Only great minds can read this This is weird, but interesting! This is a cool thing check it out:

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can. i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs forwrad it

FORWARD ONLY IF YOU CAN READ IT. Post me a message in my Cbox if u can read this. (^_^)

WAHHHHH~

2007-10-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging... Busy with work lately. Honestly, I'm not as into this drama as compared to the previous one. Someone said that's because it's not my FIRST drama anymore. Maybe... I think it's bcos of the drama genre... Well, anywayz, shooting is still on going.

Had a sudden urge to go for a haircut today, so I went. At first, it was not as short as wat it had become now. Then, after colouring my hair into gold without bleaching, my hairstylist said the previous red colour was too over-powering for the gold and there was no way to get rid of it without bleaching.

Strange.... I tot the red worn of long ago. Apparently the underlying redness was relentless in staying in my hair. I insist on not bleaching my hair though. So then, my hairstylist said she would trim away the red ends for me as much as possible. By the time I know it, my hair was short. How short? SHORT short! There is still some redness on the fringe but there was no way to cut any shorter. So well, I'll treat it as a highlight. Now I look like a boy... (~_~) It's not that I've never cut this short before, just that it has been quite a while since I see myself this way. I'm even thinking of changing my spects to match the way I look now. See how...

When I took the first look at myself, the finished 'product', the first thought that I had was a reminder of my ex.... similar hairstyle. .......... *sigh* 感情其实很简单，复杂的是人…… 当初若非爱得深，如今可能比较容易忘记吧？I heard a song while browsing the web just now, reminded me again. I sent a friend bck home yesterday nite, drove past a place that we often met in the past... reminded me again. *sigh* 忘记你不如忘记自己~

ANYWAYSSSSS, here are my SHORT short hair pics. Wahaha!

With Spects

Disgusted...... Act cute.......

Without Spects
(I dun even recognise myself)

Cool look..... WAHHHHH~

Birthday Celebrations 2007

2007-10-12T01:44:00.001+08:00

4 MEALS,

SOME PRESENTS,

SOME CELEBRATIONS,
PLENTIFUL LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP,

I'M BLESSED (^_^)

THANK YOU! THANK YOU ALL!

Vote

2007-10-08T18:29:00.000+08:00

Happy to know that most people usually feel happy! Yeah! (Although just four ppl vote and the 'most' people is two outta four. Haha!) I've added a new vote. (Kekeke) Just scroll down if you wish to vote. I will make it a point to change a new topic for the vote every monthly.

Had a nice birthday, will post it up when all my birthday celebrations are over. Hehe! Looking forward to the steamboat dinner tmr, not so much to the steamboat but more to the gathering with close friends whom I haven't met for quite some time. A pleasant and fun-loving group. (^_^)

Personality Defect Test (^_<)

2007-10-06T17:17:00.000+08:00

Nothing to do so went to do a personality defect test just for the fun of it.
http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=4741219933576750506

Try it and you can share what are you. Here's mine below:

You are 42% Rational, 14% Extroverted, 42% Brutal, and 57% Arrogant.

You are the Starving Artist! Like some sort of emaciated Frenchman, you sit in your fancy little chair and contemplate beauty, meaning, flowers, and all kinds of other ridiculous crap. You are more intuitive than logical, and are primarily guided by your heart and emotions. You are also very introverted and gentle. Of course, this does not mean that you do not have an ego. In fact, you are surprisingly arrogant for someone so emotional and gentle. This is why you are best described as a starving artist. You are very introspective and quite sure of yourself, as any accomplished artist is, yet your views are impractical, guided by feelings, and overly gentle. You probably find math, logic, and similar intellectual pursuits offensive to your artistic sensibilities, and you prefer the open-endedness of artistry because it's infinitely easier to ponder the beauty of a sock than to build rocketships. So really you have no reason to be arrogant, you big doofus, because the skills you value (emotion, spirit, art, etc.) in yourself are valuable only on a subjective level, meaning your arrogance is purely masturbatory, like the insipid self-pleasuring of some twat who spouts artistic nonsense only for the pleasant tinkling sound it makes upon his indiscriminating ears. In short, your personality is defective because you are arrogant, introverted, introspective, gentle, and thoroughly irrational...posessing most of the traits needed to be a starving--and useless--artist. So get out there, write a few short stories that are allegories for the indestructible spirit of socks, and starve!
To put it less negatively:
1. You are more INTUITIVE than rational.
2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted.
3. You are more GENTLE than brutal.
4. You are more ARROGANT than humble.
Compatibility:
Your exact opposite is the Capitalist Pig.
Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Haughty Intellectual, the Televangelist, and the Emo Kid.

Blah Blah Blah

2007-10-06T00:23:00.000+08:00

Got things to do, dun wana do
Got things I can do, dun wana do
Nothing to do, anyhow do something
Feels so insignificant, so surreal
A continuition of yesterday
Wasting life away...

今天

2007-10-05T00:17:00.000+08:00

今天...哈哈，过了十二点了，那今天就变成了昨天了噢... Anyways，今天我觉得我仿佛在浪费生命：

安排了早上送车去日常的维修，当初因为担心会影响到工作，所以预定了特早的时间-- 08:30am。果然，今天原本10:30am要看以为重要的特约演员来试镜，而后要跟监制谈复剪辑的内容，下午二时要进行复剪辑。原本是这样的。原本……

起个大早如时送车去维修，然后到公司。慢慢吃个早点，再买杯咖啡上办公室。正当我到办公室楼下时，电话响，是我监制。他说：“你不用赶着回来了，看来我必须跟你一起复剪，有些point单凭讲是讲不出的。还有，那个特约我叫人叫她改下午才来了。”挂了电话，我盘算着如何度过漫长的五个小时……

结果，看了这个星期二错过的《才华》（许雅慧还真的演得蛮不错的，用心、入戏）。再看了上个周五的Ghost Whisperer。烂。看电邮。上网。吃饭。聊天。再看上上个周五的Ghost Whisperer。1:52pm。终于要到剪片的时间了！终于不用无所事事。

监制其实早上就身体不适，来到公司还是非常不舒服。最近公司多了很多身体不适的同事，大概是年轻的时候挨坏了吧？到了一定的年纪，身体就出现些毛病……所以说健康是财富，一点也不假！迫不得已，得将复剪辑的时间改为下周二……谈了一些戏的问题（这或许是今天最有收获的事了）。等。会见了那一位特约。搭巴士+走了一段很长的路去取车，维修费$826.26（养车是贵的喽！我好穷啊！）。回家。还真一点都不精彩呢，而且剪片期要拖到下周。对于一向是急惊风，做事斩钉截铁的我来说，还蛮不甘愿的。(~_~)

这星期一和三是我新剧的造型日，我又拿起我的相机“咔嚓”啦！(^_^)

New month new MP3s

2007-10-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

Heyhey! It's a new month so I thought I should upload some new songs into my MP3. (^_^)
1)不能跟情人说的话- 范范、刘若英 (something very close to heart, the girls' talk at the start is very heart-warming I find)
2) Be Strong- Delta Goodrum (chanced upon this song which I foundvery meaningful)
3) 路太弯- 潘玮柏 (Previously on my blog, still like this song now...)
4) 小宇- 张震岳 (Don't be put off by the vocals, the song itself is nice. Imagine it sung by another singer... =p)

5) 给知己 (Song 5 and below are my songs, some blogged before, 2 not.)
6) 心情平抚后
7) 晴天雨天我会在你身边
8) Simple
9) You
10) 曾经

I recieved this as an email some time ago and found it very meaningful. If you are free, just click on the link to browse through this powerpoint slide. (^_^)

http://odies.googlegroups.com/web/Pieceofcake_1.pps?gda=R8V_80IAAADTqeaXl4MotD8aTYXskueQbxgRqVizpq8Uc-2dOuG7HWG1qiJ7UbTIup-M2XPURDRxySNcrPkz7VHuLaRTML89owzFunWcDGWh1-Nvg0u2EA

Counting down...

2007-10-01T01:14:00.000+08:00

Counting down to the date that caused my mom pains and happiness nearing 24 years ago... (^_^) and well, wadya know? It's October already! Soon it will be X'mas.

Browsing thru my photos and found this photo of my buddy and I very cute, so thought of posting it up. (Hey buddy, dun slap me ok? Hehehe!)

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!!

Spontaneous Fun Night

2007-09-30T14:28:00.000+08:00

Haha! This is a night after mid-autumn. Spontaneously met a friend for dinner, spontaneously went to Mind's Cafe in Selegie with another friend to play Simpsons Monopoly, spontaneously played with fireworks(leftovers from the previous night) under the void deck, spontaneously catch Mimi(the name of the cat who lives in the void deck of my friend)in action. All spontaneous! Spontaneously fun! Haha!

中秋节快乐！

2007-09-30T00:20:00.000+08:00

Heyhey! Haven't been blogging for some days, occupied with work and play. Haha! Had a great time during mid-autumn this year. So here am I sharing with my friends...

My Birthday gifts 2007 (^_<)

2007-09-24T02:30:00.000+08:00

Wahahaha! My birthday is nearing loh!!! Hehehe, just to convenient people who are thinking of what gifts to buy for me, I have come up a list of the possibles presents... Hehehehe! Kekekeke! I very automatic hor? Maybe no one would want to buy presents for me leh? Haha, never mind la, just in case. Hehehe!

1) A treat to full body massage
2) A treat to Jap meal (booked by somebody liaoz... Heeehee!)
3) A treat to KTV
4) 4 leaves clover accessories + basketball
5) 花样少年少女DVD + SHE Play DVD (S'pore version) + Ella's Single EP 蔷蔷 (TW version)
(If you buy them in Chinatown, they will cost less than $50 altogether. Hehe!)
6) Money... my car was repaired $350, broke now. So to recieve any amount of money I also happy. Haha!
7) Nothing but blessings! I'm satisfied to recieve heartfelt birthday blessings from my friends as well. (^_^)

Btw, what listed above are not in order of preference hor... Lalala, two more weeks... Lalala.

P.S.: You may wana leave a msg on "Garfield's Choir" if you wana buy anything above. (^_<)

给知己

2007-09-24T02:10:00.000+08:00

不需要多言语

也依然有默契

你总是那么贴心

可以聊天谈心

也可以静静听

开心的时候

你在我左右

悲伤失落时候

你握住我手

陪我泪落

你是我魔力给我力量让我坚强是我勇敢

你是我港湾让我依靠为我光照不觉渺小

*Click on the title link to listen to the song (^_^)

After that unlucky day, someone on msn made my day after saying something nice. Thank you (^_^) So just before bed, I thought, I have written songs for my idols, for my parents, for my (used-to-be) partners, for myself, but I have never written a song for my best friends. So then, I was inspired to write a song dedicated to them: 给知己。
(P.S.: If you can, imagine a choir singing, like a group of friends, at the end chorus.)

Dedicated to my two special friends who are blessings from God, you are the best gifts I have ever recieved. I thank God for you with all my heart!

To know someone here and there who thinks and feels with us, and though distant, is close to us in spirit, this makes the earth for us an inhabited garden. - Goethe

路太弯

2007-09-21T00:20:00.000+08:00

http://play82.tom.com/uploadfile/song/200709/07/1189151343_358035.mp3

这是一首很贴心的歌，不妨听一听：

我在这里计算终点的距离
下一站有没有更期待的结局
眼闭上眼看不看的见过去
看不看的见原来那个你
和幸福的关系
路太弯梦在转错过的人已不在
以为我能习惯一个人安全感
路太弯爱在转明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

眼闭上眼看不看的见过去
看不看的见原来那个你
和幸福的关系
路太弯梦在转错的人已不在
以为我能习惯一个人安全感
路太弯爱在转明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

付出过是不是就换的回希望
呼吸太乱世界太宽
缘分毕竟太短

路太弯梦在转错的人已不在
以为我能习惯一个人安全感
路太弯爱在转明知忘记会很难
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状
我一路上跌跌撞撞
却找不回拥抱的形状

Today was not my day (~,~)

2007-09-20T23:29:00.001+08:00

Today just wasn't my day...

I hope such a day would not occur again though I know there definitely would be some days in a year which will be dreadful. Black. Unlucky.

I did not hear my alarm clock ring this morning and din't get up on time for work. Luckily my mom woke me up but still I was late for 10mins. Well, it may have been worse if not for my mom, so I'm still greatful and give thanks.

A day of survey. Okay... but it seems like we haven't got anything really fixed yet. (~,~) Production is starting on the 8th October, just two more weeks from now, and I haven't got the script yet. It doesn't really bother me much cos I have yet finished editing for the current project but everything just looks so unsettled. (*_*)

Then three colleagues and I went to eat stinky tofu for dinner. Haven't been there quite long and there was just a craving for it today. Had a good dinner with some chats that we've haven't had for some time.

Dropping off two colleagues on my way home. While entering PIE from Paya Lebar, a motorcylist patted on my car with the intent of complaining that my car was too near him and could have injure his leg. But I was IN the lane, he was too near my car. That was a small matter, though I din't quite like him patting on my car.

Jalan Eunos, dropping off one colleague. I cut into the second lane after making sure there were no cars. To my disarray, a car from the third lane collided into mine while I was steering my car straight. His vehicle had long scratches, mine suffered a severe dent and off-colour at the front. Luckily my lights are still intact, repair costs might be higher if my light was damaged. I do not think it was totally my fault because he had enough reaction time to slow down. I signalled, cutting out at low speed while he came around 70km/h. Haiz... a 'disaster' caused. Some arguements over who should bear the repair costs...

I reached home. Consulted my dad about the accident and he said if I were to report to TP or the insurance, I would lose the case judging on the situation. ... ... Haiz, just last month end, a silver cab bumped into my back in Takashimaya driveway. Yes, driveway. Haiz. Of course it was his fault and he paid for my repair costs. Little did I expect I would be involved in another accident in less than a month. Time to buy 4D. So well, I would have to pay for the repair costs for both vehicles then. I wouldn't want to claim insurance because they take very long to process the claim and to repair the car. Lots of procedure, meddlesome. Haiz...

Do you believe in destiny? Could this be destined? Anyways, maybe I was not that unlucky today since I managed to use two lucky in my post. I should give thanks things are not worse. It was a bad day but it could have been worse... I just hope that I won't have these bad days so often. I do not need a good day, just a normal one would do.

Recall: I've been getting anonymous calls these two days... Are they purely wrong number? Am I too sensitve? Just that day we msned, then I got these anonymous calls. One part of me hope I'm just being sensitve, the other hoping it was you. Haiz... 好辛苦

New MP3s

2007-09-18T03:14:00.000+08:00

YarloW people!!! Hahaha! I changed my mp3 player on my blog to an iPod including 10 songs:

1) 女人本色
2) Book B (Canto)
3) Stand By Me (Jap)
4) Ke Yi Ai Ni Ma (Kor)
5) I Wanna Grow Old With You (my all time favourite love song ^_^)
6) 曾经
7) Simple
8) You
9) 晴天雨天我会在你身边
10) 心情平抚后

Now you have got more choices and it gives me a chance to share some nice songs I listen with you. There are different languages and different genres to suit the masses. Haha! Yes, if you noticed, the last five songs in my player are My Songs, #6-8 are blogged before whereas #9,10 are newly recorded. #9 was composed during my secondary school life inspired by my idol while #10 was composed during my JC life, it's one of the few 'rock' songs I've composed.

I would like to introduce 女人本色 by Gigi Leung, it's got Chinese and Canto version, the contents of the lyrics are quite different though. I prefer the Chinese version because it portrays strong women.... I would like to be one. Haha! Enjoy!

女人本色 (Canto)

作曲:梁咏琪作词:陈少琪/梁咏琪

女人输得起是种福份
再穿起高跟考天份
女人应该跟甚麼指引
才是满分
明白若滴泪滴湿衫袖
眉目便受罪让化妆加厚
做到得到手亦可以轻松放手
开心过後来年怀旧

(a)女人到底心太易碎
却不断天天爱下去
生活昨天跟我敌对
今日我笑中有泪水
女人到底心太易醉
有些梦必须发下去
间中高呼快乐无罪
洒尽每樽香水又大一岁(a)

长夜若漫漫并非灾难
谁伴著做饭在记忆展览
夜里失了恋但朝早必须上班
这不会为谁人缓慢

Repeat (a)

女人到底心太易碎
碎片割走都撑下去
总没见得需要伴侣
不是爱我的不要追
女人到底心太易醉
那些伴侣方算伴侣
我想高呼快乐无罪
空虚脂肪眼泪我会击退
红酒杯非一对亦能面对
红酒杯中偷看对面是谁

(Chinese)
女人受了伤并不惭愧
至少狠狠爱过一回
爱一个人像穿高跟鞋
跳着芭蕾
何苦让眼泪变成装备
粉底香水皮肤会受罪
注定不能挽回的
就不要挽回
至少往事还能回味
谁说女人的心易碎
痛过笑过都要面对
寂寞不会把我摧毁
不再做脆弱的花蕊
谁说女人的心易醉
有些梦不做会后悔
我说一声快乐无罪
用完一瓶香水
大了一岁
孤独不是一场灾难
一个人做饭都一样浪漫
今天失恋了我明天准时上班
时间不会为我减慢
谁说女人的心易碎
痛过笑过都要面对
寂寞不会把我摧毁
不再做脆弱的花蕊
谁说女人的心易醉
有些梦不做会后悔
我说一声快乐无罪
用完一瓶香水
大了一岁
谁说女人的心易碎
痛过笑过都要面对
寂寞不会把我摧毁
不再做脆弱的花蕊
谁说女人的心易醉
有些梦不做会后悔
我要证明快乐无罪
让我为所欲为勇敢的追

愛

2007-09-15T03:59:00.000+08:00

爱是勇敢，爱是胆怯

爱是包容，爱是体谅

爱是拥有，爱是付出

爱是了解，爱是忍耐

爱是执著，爱是退让

爱是坚强，爱是脆弱

爱是握紧，爱是放手

爱是甜蜜，爱是苦涩

爱是快乐，爱是心伤

爱是圆满，爱是缺憾

爱是丰盛，爱是寂寞

爱并非占有，

爱是祝福

Just some thoughts...

2007-09-14T20:09:00.000+08:00

The sky was beautiful in the morning yesterday. Sunny and blue, took some shots with my camera. Hehe! \(^_<)/ Yesterday was quite an eventful day, striking me to think about lots of stuff. So here I am to put my floating bubbles into words... The day started with a reshoot. The reason for reshoot? One of the artiste in the scene wore the wrong conti costumes. (*~*) It was so uncalled for! Waste of time, waste of effort, waste of production costs and resources! The artiste was not a least bit apologetic as well. *ARGH* Haiz... To tell you the truth, I still liked wat I shot the first time: The lighting and framing was better, the feel is different as well. (~,~)

After the shoot, I went back to office to look at the setting blueprint and do some miscelleneous stuff. Saw my Mama in office and chatted with her for over an hour. FYI, I have a mother and a sister at work, it's a blessing. (^,^) Besides updating each other's happenings, she shared something else with me. She was saying, at the end of the day, what is it that you will find fulfilling? What boils down to you being you? You may have carved out a career, you may have earned a lot, but is that all? It reminds me of a line in Fight Club (movie starring Edward Norton and Brad Pitt), "You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet." 再有成就的人，还是要有爱、家人。(and God... She's a Christian.)

I guess in different stages of life, your focus will be on different stuff. What she says makes sense and is true and I know, but some things take time or it's not up to you. True love is hard to encounter, and even if you encounter, difficult to harness. Maybe my heart is too vulnerable now, maybe not suitable to take on anymore abstract stuff. Career is something you can control... Not totally, but at least something concrete which you can work on. ...I dun know... Just thoughts.

After leaving office, I went for a movie. No Reservations. Had actully planned to watch it with a fren, but she totally forgotten about it and had to work. (~_~") I went ahead cos I was in the mood of the movie. That's me! Spontaneous! Doing the things I feel like doing when I feel it. Haha! (^_^)7 It was as expected: cliched plot, splendid acting, wonderful romance. The dialouges were humourous, on and off of laughters were heard in the cinema throughout the running time. It was nice... Sweet.

Home. Saw the NATAS commercial on tv. HAAaaaah, travelling. Come to think of it, I haven't been abroad this year. I was on leave for two weeks in June, but then, I din't have the mood to go travelling, to be on a plane, to go to Changi Airport... Little did I expect, I broke my record of travelling at least once a year since the age of 18. I would have to wait till next feb/march to go abroad. My next destination? Hokkaido. 九寨沟。Hehehehe! Feels so happy just to think of it.

Late night. I saw someone on msn whom I havn't talk to for a long time. I din't know where I plucked my courage from to say "Hi". Then we started to msn, it feels as if a hand was grabbing onto my heart... Cautious of the words I used, not too hostile, not too expressive... ............................................................ I'm glad we msn. Glad to find out how you are doing. Glad to find out you are still concerned about me in some ways. ...I duno where I plucked my courage from but I'm glad I did.

Best blessings!

感情其实很简单，复杂的……是人。

You

2007-09-12T21:08:00.000+08:00

You left me with happy memories too painful too forget
Struggling with the lovely sorrows you beget
How could I leave the memories untouched
When my love and feelings for you surge

Maybe you're feeling the same way as I do
To control our passions and not lose our cool
No matter where
No matter how
I just hope Time can really cast our past adieu

Even as you go away you won't allow me to say
Bon voyage
Take care
Why did everything have to end this way
I thought I could have made you stay

This is one of the limited english songs I wrote which I think is still passable. Haha! My command of English is not as good as Chinese, that's why I mostly write Chinese songs(in terms of lyrics). I wrote this song in JC 2... Well, that's all I'm gonna say. You hear it. (^_^)

*Click on the title link to listen to the song

１リットルの涙

2007-09-12T03:41:00.000+08:00

刚刚天空撒下一阵夜幕细雨，凉风习习吹入我微亮的房间，蛮清爽的。"(^,^)"

在网上浏览时，偶然看到有１リットルの涙（一公升眼泪）的特级，马上点击观看。果然，又让我费了不少纸巾。１リットルの涙，日语发音为ichi rittoru no namida，是富士电视台在2005年按真人真事改编的一处日剧。赚人热泪的剧集播出时好评如流，至今仍然在网上传颂，真是值得观看的诚意之作。

朋友们，如果你有时间，如果你想得到勇气，如果你想被感动，如果你想大哭一场，就一定要看!

*P.S.: 启播前请准备纸巾哦！(^_<)7

Sharing my songs

2007-09-11T01:36:00.000+08:00

*YAWN* Garfield is having dark eye rings... *YAWN* But Garfield is wilful, dun like to go to bed early. (*_*)

I have decided to publish some of my favourite self-composed songs on my blog to share it with my friends (and who knows, some producer may stomp upon my blog and like one of my songs and let his singer perform it for me! Haha! If you guy know who I'm referring to...陈震，the blogger whose songs are sung by SHE). Hereby I wanna thank my buddy who has been the listener to my songs all these years... since secondary school... Thank you! (^_^) Thank you for listening to all my awful singing but still giving your support!

Click on the title link above to listen to SIMPLE, a song I've written in my upper secondary years. It has been sung in JC in a performance by my group of friends before. This song has been one of my favourites-- Catchy tune and positive message. I have always wanted to make this song an acappela but of course, I'm not pro enuf. Did my best to mix the song together but the ending is still quite messy, hope you ppl don't mind. Haha! Too awful can just click the close button. Haha =p

*P.S.: Please do not publicise my songs without my permission. Thank you.

SIMPLE
Old MacDonald had a farm~

粗茶淡饭我很快乐山珍海味我倒不觉得
贫穷生活我过得简单富贵荣华我反而看不上（眼）

乡村生活我感染气息繁华社会我无法呼吸
做个小人物我自由自在
是个大人物偶而不被真心对待

其实我的日子过得怎样不要紧
是你的幸福我最关心

It's just a simple life
It's just a simple life
It's just a simple life With you~

It's gonna be just a simple life
It's gonna be just a simple life
It's gonna be just a simple life With you~

Ee-ya-e-ya-o~ (Simple life with you~)

Old MacDonald had a farm~

曾经

2007-09-10T01:48:00.000+08:00

*Note: You may click on the title link to listen to the song.

曾经多么在乎我对我关切
曾经多么疼惜我对我体贴
曾经那么深爱过
曾经那么温柔
曾经只是曾经

曾经我们热恋过甜蜜执着
曾经我们誓言过彼此相守
曾经以为天长地久
曾经已是（不过是）曾经

多希望曾经的誓言会一一实现
多眷恋曾经你对我的（多）爱

我们怎么会变成陌路人
怎么从牵手变分手
已经忘了所有的曾经
已经不爱了

我们怎么会从肩并着肩变成对街不相识
怎么从思念变成了冷漠
变成了（只是）曾经

在七月二十九日那晚，我忽然感受到四个月后的余震……原来我是那么在乎的。有了灵感，写下了这首歌“曾经”。无需多说，一切尽在歌词中，一目了然。今晚我选择把我最近期的作品摆上部落格上只是心血来潮，想和朋友们分享我的歌、我当时的感受，没有别的。

谢谢关心，我想我已经释怀了吧…让一切化上句点、化作曾经。我会珍惜这段回忆，也会继续认真生活。(^_^)

No Reservations

2007-09-09T01:48:00.000+08:00

This is the next movie I'm gona hit the cinemas for-- NO RESERVATIONS
I have include a title link for the trailer of the movie so those interested can... u-noe-wot (^_<)

Saw the trailer in another movie... think it was Harry Potter, and thought, "Hmm, this should be a nice romance movie...I should catch it." Even though the two main leads have typical movie female/male lead personalities and the plot quite cliched, the acting should be enticing. Also, just looking at the appetising cuisines would be nice. Haha! I'd beta have my meal before watching it lest my stomach growls... Opps! =p

Think there are too many reservations in life... What reserves are those? What caused them? Whether these reserves we might have would actually affect the outcome of the "thing" that we wanted to do initially? *thinks*

私は知らない...... Who knows the future? You'll never know what is installed till you venture on what you want to try. Sometimes we are so much in our comfort zone that we forget(or are afraid) that the unfamiliar stuff out there may actually bring us to greater heights of our lives and character! Change, is exciting.

If you don't ever try, you will never know.
If you havn't experienced it, you will never understand.
Let there be no reservations! \(^,^)/

部落格……

2007-09-08T14:22:00.000+08:00

部落格是 现代日记

以电脑代替了手写
用整齐取代了性格

记载的… 同样是心情故事

不同的是将“私房菜”变成了“满汉全席”

部落格是 生活分享

让无聊的人浏览

让八卦的人阅读

让变态的人满足变态心理

让相识的人了解

让知己好友关心

让邂逅浪漫…

部落格是心情故事…

部落格是人生窥探…

部落格是心灵密码…

部落格是……

空は今日とても美しい!

2007-09-08T05:54:00.000+08:00

I have been wanting to set up a blog since I bought this new laptop three months ago. There have been times where I really wanted to put my thoughts and feelings somewhere... Don't need anyone to know, just to pen them down... somewhere. However, I thought it would require too much commitment of me... Don't like to do the things I have no confidence in (commiting).

BUT NOW! I got myself a new camera at COMEX recently and it sort of give me the courage to set up a blog since I now have nice pictures to share with my friends. \(^_^)/ It was also today's... or rather, yesterday's bright sunny day with clear blue skies that prompted me to set up my blog. Click on the link!

See see the sky very nice rite? Hehehe (^o^)

FINALLLLYYYYY!!!!!

2007-09-08T05:42:00.000+08:00

I have finally got my BLOG done up nicely! *phew* Had a hell of a time doing this blog up...

Actually, I found it fairly easy to do trial and error until the want to include the mp3. Gosh! THAT was frustating! The steps you have to go thru... *faints* I restarted my laptop thrice while setting up my blog. *faints faints* (>_<")

Hope you frenz who visited my blog enjoyed this song I like very much from the movie "The Wedding Singer". It's very sweet and it is my wish that someday, the One you love can sing this to you.... well, if he/she duno how to sing, then at least say something with similar meaning to you. p(^_<)q